Hey everyone, I just discovered this sub and wish I would have sooner! I am getting married August 19th after a short engagement (April 30th). I essentially planned most of the big items (venue, catering, date, rings) within 2 weeks, got the website and the electronic invites out and we were ready to roll by mid May.What has been really hard is dealing with my family and the fact that I just don't really feel that happy. Most of this has been a giant compromise, stressful or disappointing.I don't have a good relationship with my mom and there has been a number of times in my life we have gone months or years without talking. She has NPD and only cares about the wedding based on me as an object (how I will look, how she will look to other people), has no idea or desire to care about how I'm doing, who I am or what is important to me. She also is divorcing my step dad who is a wonderful man, and I'm still not even clear if I'm allowed to mention to anyone they are splitting up, do I sit them together? She is such a ticking time bomb and is very mentally ill. My gramma is the most important person in my life aside from my fiance and she has tried to uninvite her behind my back several times. This is a very short synopsis of all the incidents but almost every week she has thrown some sort of hell my way and with my current seating chart I have everyone else at a table and her sitting alone because I don't know what to do. I don't even know if she is capable of just being nice to someone without it being erratic and loaded with abuse. I sort of feel like if I can just get through this day without setting her off that is an accomplishment. Which sucks. People keep telling me how happy I should be and I feel sort of miserable.I also feel fairly sad because my family and friends are all over the country, where as my fiance has most of his support system in the city we are having the wedding.. so he has a ton of people coming, there have been a few people who have written beautiful speeches for him when they misunderstood what he was asking (we meant to have two nice speeches about the two of us together) so I will just kind of have no one to speak about me and be awkwardly.. I dunno trying to mitigate my mother.Then today my fiance found out his friend planned him an amazing bachelor party that happens to be exactly what I would have loved to do (a weekend away in the mountains in a beautiful condo). I followed up with my friend who was set on planning a bachelorette for me and she forgot, hasn't contacted anyone or organized anything and now may even have to work...I looked into just taking myself on a staycation but something must be happening in my city that weekend because hotels and airbnbs are well into the $500+ a night range.it just all feels so crappy. I know this is sort of just a whole big rant and I sound like a brat.. but I was just hoping to feel special and the love and support of my friends and family. Most of my friends are far away and can't make it and I just feel lonely and sad. Does anyone have advice or just.. an anecdote for dealing with difficult people or situations during this time? via /r/weddingplanning http://ift.tt/2tPDxJO
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